actually, this is who I am.
I am full of fear—it’s in every cell of my body. and I don’t hate it. I don’t want it there, but I don’t attack if for existing or scream at it to leave.
I know it’s there for a good reason.
it protected me from things worth being protected from.
I am full of sadness—it’s in every cell of my body. it weighs me down, suffocates me some days, but I don’t hate it.
I know it’s there for a good reason.
my heart wants to pick up every ounce of sadness and cradle it gently so everyone can be loved for everything they’re hurting for.
I am full of cynicism—it’s in every cell of my body. the bitterness and resentment and cold, hard grudges creep out of my bones and twist themselves into knots around my heart and hands and tell me to believe the worst of the worst.
and I don’t hate it. I don’t want it there, but ripping it out of me would only leave fragments still wanting to save.
it protected me from coming to terms with a life worth questioning.
more than the fear and sadness and cynicism, I’m full of love—it’s penetrated every molecule of who I am and there’s nothing else in the world that could keep me going like the love that lives inside every cell of my being.
it’s not just the sweet, simple, endearing kind of love that gives people butterflies and warms someone’s heart.
it’s the bottomless, cavernous, incomprehensibly deep kind of love that stretches on for so long and spreads itself so wide that not even the closest, most loved people in my life know how much more I have to give and want so badly to pour out.
it’s all here.
I contain multitudes and so do you—so it’s best to hold things loosely, consider things deeply, grasp things softly.
there’s no telling who you’ll be tomorrow—seeing as you have the capacity to move mountains or splinter into specks of stardust or heal a stranger’s heart with a single smile.
there’s no telling who you’ll be today—so we might as well enjoy it as we ride the wave of now.
there’s really no telling who we are—it’s all here—so let’s hold it all loosely while we wait to find out.
Wowwwwwwwww