soulmates pt. 2

apparently, it does get better...

{prerequisite read: soulmates pt. 1}

a year ago today, i was snuggled deep into the couch cushions of our Airbnb getaway in the hillside of Glenwood Springs, Colorado, reflecting on my current state of emotions. the room was sparkling with the love and curiosity and fervor that gets stirred up and spilled over in endless torrents when old, true friends reunite. the room also dawned cozy cups of coffee, homemade bread, knitting needles and yarn, paints and brushes, and, in the center of it all, the perusing of old photographs of our travels across Italy almost 4 years prior—the place it all started.

caught between the desire to try my hand at the watercolors and the flood of emotions swirling around my chest, a stream of consciousness ended up scrawled on the pages of my sketchbook; a journal entry i can’t help but share with you today:

“my heart is already so full. i had no idea this love could be reignited so quickly, so unconditionally. it makes me marvel, heart open, eyes shining, at the natural and almost inevitable state of mind we’re so strongly drawn towards: a deep, expansive love that hugs every particle of the human creature in front of us—gratitude for their existence squeezing tightly to all their broken pieces, not letting a single sliver fall to the wayside for fear of them not knowing their loveliness in their imperfect perfection…an ode to my sisters.”

later that day:

“feeling whole. feeling content. feeling grateful the beauty of the souls surrounding me is enough to make life feel the most meaningful its ever felt—but not ever will feel…beauty expanding on beauty…life will only become more gloriously whole.”

i had forgotten i’d convinced myself that, despite the awe and peace i had been filled with after convening with some of the most wonderful humans i’d ever known, our love for each other could only grow, thus deepening and widening the overwhelmingly tranquil experience that is feeling one with the purpose of life…to love.

apparently, it can only keep getting better and better than this.

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