An unforgettable feeling. An ineffable overwhelm of emotions. A favorite wordy gush of mine. This needed a permanent space on the platform.
“I can’t believe such intensely beautiful souls exist in this life. It makes life completely interesting. There’s something about discovering depth—true, messy, achy, gooey, infinite depth within someone else that suddenly opens so much inside you. Like a sort of permission slip to go the distance, to be strange, to be open, to be raw, to be ugly and falling apart and lovable all at the same time—because someone somewhere keeps saying that it‘s not possible for these to coexist and we’re saying it is. And there’s something deep, deep inside me that whole-heartedly, excitedly, longingly agrees. The feeling inside of me is like a plunge into cold water, a wakeup call saying, “I’ve been here this whole fucking time.” I’m only now opening my eyes, only just now realizing my heart has hands and feet and it’s running and reaching and grasping and clawing for that depth, that knowing, that love, that peace inside that’s been asleep—or suffocated, rather—but no more. No more letting her go back into triggered stretches of hibernation. 24 years of sleep is quite enough to propel me wide awake through the rest of my life—disoriented, maybe, but dancing, breaking, healing, running, resting, mourning—always moving forward—toward Wholeness, toward Remembering, toward Light, toward Love, toward Peace, toward Mother-Wisdom, toward Her.”
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